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24.9.09 wow.it has been a while yea.but i have been talking to a fren of mine which made me think so much. truly interesting...he said things that really touched my heart too.. it all started from looking at his pictures in his mac... seriously...damn emo... aniwaes. the pictures were wen he went to cambodia (i think) cant really recall. so like he was doing cip work there and all. and there was this boy (who i tot was my fren but isnt) he told me his story.truly made me grateful for everything i have. so this village that they went to... they went to help them build a well, fix some shed thingy and more. so it was a community effort and the volunteers were there to 'help' but not there to help. like he was saying wen it rained, they had to stop working, cus dangerous and stuff but the villagers continued on working, fixing and digging the well. wad determination rite? seriously... wen we have so easy excess to water, they are still FINDING water. so there was this boy.who came from a poor family (all the families there were poor) but they still managed to send him to school which is far far away. his bed is under the house (cus the house is built on stilts) dun ask me why, my fren oso dunno why liddat. then there was a small candle and a bookshelf. so after a long day of working,digging,putting heavy, REALLY HEAVY rocks to form the base, he would return to his 'room'. and lighted his candle, reading/studying. LIKE OMG!! seriously...now think bout it. in your situation. you would complain...'shit lah...got assignment...shit lah...got school.' yet these ppl are struggling to stay in school when they WANT to stay in school. moreover, he was STUDYING!! after a long day of WORKING!! wad would we do? complain.sulk.complain.sulk. yet this boy was studying...truly an inspiration. there were many other things that we talked about. but this really touched my heart...made me think about how blessed we are. the reality of these kinds of situations..is jus so striking... sometimes, i really wonder, would i prefer such a life. a village life - close bonded ness,etc. versus a 'corporate' life.a 'modern' life.... 23.7.09 self fulfilling prophesy:-wad you say will come true or what you think will come true... seriously...people are trapped in their own self-fulfilling prophesies... the more you think or say or believe in wadeva u say, think or believe...it will come true... like now i'm giving tuition here and there... a conversation btw me and the kid today during tuition: kid: i really dunno how to do (acts lazily as it is almost time up) me: you can do it!! you are smart enough kid: NO. i not smart one...i only foundation.not doing normal like the rest... me: but you can do the other questions which are meant for normal students... you are smart! kid: NO..i really dunno..i really not SMART one... i really NOT SMART wan...!! see...a classic case of self-fulfilling prophesy... if you say you cant or can do it... you are right (quoted by Henry Ford) seriously....wads up wif ppl man....u think that way of course lah.. you will forever think you're stupid and be stupid eventually becus that is wad u believe... sheesh... same concept if you dont like to do things... like you hate camps...before the camp started..your mindset is like..this camp sucks... it alrdy blocks you from trying to enjoy yourself!! the best solution...keep and open mind... ITS GOOD :D 25.3.09 tell the truth...it hurts.dun tell the truth...it oso hurts. say wad u truly thinkg...it hurts.. say wad e other person wans to hear...it hurts.. wad to do? seriously. i oso dunno... i guess every1 in this world has parents.be it foster parents or wadeva kind. i know that every1 would want their parents to love them. for some.it seems that their parents are nvr around. when they reach home.their parents are out. they do wadeva they like.whenever they like it. cus why? their parents are nvr around. nvr around to keep 'watch' over them. to show concern/love by asking,'where are you gg' etc for others.they want to be independent.they wan their parents to give them more freedom when they reach home.their parents are like strict disciplinarians. DO YOUR HOMEWORK they scream,STUDY AND STOP PLAYING! they shout they give $$ to their kids when they need it have a say in as to where the child is gg or whether they can even go out always ask their children to not stay out too late if past the curfew.the parents will scream and scold. wad if u live in the extreme of cases in the above 2 situations. for instance, you haf become of age.become legal to do anything in your life BUT they still haf a strong say in your life. true.they are your parents.they haf their say. but wad about you?how about doing wad you WANT to do? and bearing your own consequences. definately.any parent wouldnt want to see their children doing bad like drugs,crime.etc but wad happens if it jus normal life. like staying out late.waking up late.etc let the child bear his/her own consequence of their life lah! its their life.damnit. true you are parents.but you cant keep watchin over ur child for the rest of ur life rite? wouldnt your child become more dependent on you? or in the case when you are not around.not be able to live without a conscience who is literally human? seriously.......... 12.3.09 dearest m,i know that you love me and b very very much. we both know that. we can see the effort that you haf done for both of us but seriously.relax and give us some breathing room thank you for your advice and guidance in living our lives. i'm pretty certain that we haf reached a certain age that we would like to discover things for ourself instead of being told things. we would like to experiment and try out so pls.take a step back and give us some room to grow and develop let us live how we want to live. i know that you love us very dearly it is seen in your actions such as planning of allocation of the 'c' where ultimately,it benefits b and myself mostly. pls rest assured that wen we say its ok. ITS OK. so pls.give us some room to grow and develop let us live how we want to live. i know that you love us very very dearly and very very much your love towards us is ostounding is a lot thank you for your concern and care 24-7 but let us do what we want to do. let us not be confined by you. instead support us and when we fall.help to pick us up. so pls.give us some room to grow and develop let us live how we want to live. 29.1.09 signs of recession:- u notice ppl wif shorter hair (so that cut fewer times in the year) - u notice ppl eat half their lunch so that they save the rest for dinner - ppl call you out to go 'window' shopping instead of shopping - ppl call you on your hp using their house phone/office phone - use of more vouchers wen out shopping/eating - fewer supper gatherings 25.1.09 let me tell you a story:now there was a boy.he was like any other boy. he had a father and a mother and had a normal family. wen it came to gg to sch.his mother would wake him up particularly early so that he would be early for sch. most often than not,he would reach sch half an hour b4 it actually started. perhaps the mother was afraid that he would be late for sch and did not want him to be. so time past and the boy grew up. when he went to ns, the mother insisted on fetchin him to his camp everything he had to book in. that was very loving of his mother and he truly was deeply thankful for it. however...several times.wen he pre-arranged to leave the house at a certain time. his mother would somehow haf some last minute small thing to do which would end up them leavin the house slightly later.which meant that he was late. has his mother changed?is his mother now not afraid of him gg late to camp?to serve ns? does his mother think that the excuse of 'oh.my mother fetch me late to camp' work?! like seriously.... years past and now the boy grew up and taught tuition. wen he was supposed to teach at 8pm, his mother insisted that they haf dinner at 715pm. this would mean that the boy would be late.and indeed.the boy was late for his tuition class. so.. the boy grew frustrated and irritated. the boy said in his head,'MOM!! I'M GG TO BE LATE AND SERIOUSLY I CANT USE YOU AS AN EXCUSE!!! I'M GROWN UP FOR CRYING OUT LOUD AND AM RESPONSIBLE FOR MY OWN ACTIONS NOW!!! I CANT BE YOUR SMALL BOY FOREVER!!!!!!!' 9.12.08 thanks for caring...thanks for showing it so obviously... i know that your care and love me a lot... i can seriously see it... but it seems as though i'm like a small boy boy... i can take care of myself... you need not worry too much bout me... i can differentiate right from wrong.. i have morals...i understand right and wrong... pls...i know you love me.. so pls...................... |
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quotes sadness has overtaken my life watashi -borin boy- likes... anime, music, tennis, frens, hanging out, slacking, sleeping wad do you like? dislikes... people who dun study and do well, reading, soccer(dun get why people like to chase a ball??) hope you dun fall under the people dreams... they are imaginary clouds above your head when you sleep with coloured tv screen. do you have dreams? other peeps...
Alex
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